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Flow or No

Whether it is because of the PTSD or otherwise, I tend to work in spurts or fits and starts. I keep thinking I should just be able to schedule something for a few hours, I can, but mostly don’t.

I need to accept that the abuse, panic attacks, and PTSD all make a regular schedule very difficult, if not impossible, as much as I’d like otherwise.

I need to stop fighting this and just accept it as the way I flow, period. I think when/if I can do that, the panic attacks or vestiges of them will lessen dramatically. It’s my belief that the panic is due largely to people being able to “see” what I’m doing or have done. I have a lot fewer problems, like nearly none, when I’m working for other people. This is only the stuff I do at home.
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Can I repeat, again, how much I really, absolutely hate the woman who abused me? It totally sucks to have your brain be your main enemy. It sucks more to view any finished project as something which will be attacked, belittled, or sneered at, whether it’s a clean kitchen counter or an art work. This just makes getting anything done a real challenge. [And I needed more of those, right?]

P.S. Reading this, I realized t’s wrong. I don’t hate her. I hate what she did to my brain. If it wasn’t that no matter how much work I do, this will be with me forever, I would have very few feelings about here at all.

She’s gone, her daughter is gone. The memories of what she did just make me feel sorrty: for her that she could be so nasty, her daughter and myself because she felt it necessary to emotionally attack two innocent little girls,, who grew to be wounded women because of it. It was just a waste.

Why You’ll (Maybe) Hear G & S at My House

I have an itunes recording of “When the Foeman Bares His Steel” from Gilbert & Sullivan’s Pirates of Penzance on my computer. I will set the controls to repeat it as a loop. When I’m alone (and only then) I will turn the volume up and

—-GO!—–

I clean house to it. I love that piece because, musically, it is the internal dialog that all of us go through when we face something difficult.

There are three main groups singing: the policemen and their sergeant (who’ve been tasked with going after pirates), the girls (daughters of the major general) and the major general.

The Police: “When the foeman bares his steel, we uncomfortable feel. . .”

When facing anything scary, we’re uncomfortable.

“…we find the wisest thing is to slap our chests and sing tar-an-tara!”

We do what we we have to, to get ourselves psyched to do whatever it is.

“…when your heart is in your boots, there’s nothing brings it ’round like the trumpet’s martial sound, like the trumpet’s marital sound. . . tarantara, tarantara, tarantara.”

We play inspirational music, read things, go to places, whatever works, to goad ourselves forward, right?

The girls: “Go, ye heroes, go to glory,though you die in combat gory, ye shall live in song and story. Go to immortality!”

Don’t we all tell ourselves we’re doomed to fail? But if nothing else, someone might just notice how hard we tried?

The sergeant: “Though to us it’s evident, these intentions are well meant, such expressions don’t appear, calculated men to cheer. But it’s very evident these intentions are well meant.”

Our internal reasoning.

The girls: “Go to glory and the grave! For your foes are fierce and ruthless, false, unmerciful, and truthless; young and tender, old and toothless,all in vain their mercy crave.”

You’re going to fail. You can’t do this. How many times have we told ourselves that? (Too many to count, if you’re me.)

policeman pirates of penzance

Lastly, there is the internal dialog steeling yourself to actually DO the thing:

General: “Away, away!

Police: “Yes, yes, we go!”

General: These pirates slay!”

Police: “Tarantara!”

The General: “Then do not stay.”

Police: “Tarantara!”

General: “Then why this delay?”

Police: “All right we go.”

Girls: “Yes, forward on the foe.”

Police: “Yes, forward on the foe. ”

General: “Yes, but you don’t go!”

Police: “Yes, forward on the foe.”

Girls: “At last they go.”

Police: “We go, we go.”

Girls: “At last they go, at last they go!”

Police: “We go. We go.”

Girls: “At last they really, really go!

Police: “We go, we go, we go!”

Nov 7: To Do

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Living Room: caulk & trim paint, as needed. Furniture is being replaced without a plan. Move typewriter/stand to its new home (wherever that is). After couch is moved, decide about coffee tables. Sell unused table. Add wall art. Bring down couch and round coffee table. Maybe? Bring in Daddy’s rug  — or get rid of it? Replace: switches and socket covers, as needed. Cull/Clean: remaining fabric to Jeannies for reupholstery. Finish trim as needed.

  •  Long Term:
    • Trim piece against kitchen wall, window trim, stair rail. Replace interior trim on  2nd single window & double window, paint/install trim against beam kitchen wall. Mod baseboards. Caulk/paint floor/baseboards. Look at “roller coaster” idea, fix if needed. Move kitchen door? Replacement ladders for blinds. (http://www.fixmyblinds.com) Buy material, shorten the blinds. (Buy a miniblind at some thrift shop to play with to learn how to do this before buying ladders.)
    • Hall: Replace smoke detector (future). Add corner detail on doors (future).
    • Kitchen: Make plan using both Hoosiers and dismantling too-large counter.  Not feasible?Sell one Hoosier.
    • Dining: Remove crib rail? Candlabra? Reuse the hanging baskets and/or rail elsewhere? Rehang cabinet. Paint drawer units? Paint china cabinet.
    • Attic:Decide what to sell. Get bookcases upstairs and bays built. Sell magazine table?
    • Office 1:Clear/clean counter & take it upstairs. Remove everything bookcases and get them moved to the attic.  Bring in the dresser currently in the wood shed. Stack on top of it (same size, and small) the 2nd dresser, currently in the storage. Get sewing machine legs detached from base. Recycle, reuse, or dump.
    • Office 2: Move your office downstairs.

Cull/Clean (general): Take old window bits to dump. Take stuff for sale either to antique store or to storage so that it’s no longer cluttering up the living room! Cull down glove, scarf, hat collection, as appropriate. Clothes & cloth need a serious culling! Sold bookcase! Take desk chair to store for sale.

Entry: Caulk as needed. Pantry: Add trim and do final paint.

Kitchen:  Finish new window/shelf. Final paint on sidelight, new shelf. Remove crate shelves on counter. Find new homes for the pieces stored there.

Laundry: (longterm) Get switch thing set up. Storage bins.

Bathroom: Clean corners, window. Replace caulk as needed. Repaint room. Replace trim to match the  rest of the house. If new gallon is enamel paint and not the flat, paint bathroom?

Bedroom: (Cull/Clean) get couch downstairs. When reupholstered chair returns, put it here, not living room. Get tapestry on stretchers. Quilt rehab.

Attic: Get the remaining  base cabinet in. Move the bookcases in. Build bays.

Storage: Remove the 2nd Hoosier for the kitchen.Get at least 5 boxes out and deal with the stuff in them. Move to 10 x 20 unit. Get the 2nd dresser home

Get the windows done. SR door panel 27.5 x 64,

Get the online and computer files cleaned out. (Drafts here = 43 10/11 “Tally” page information (tab, this blog) moved to history 9/17.

Wood stacking: 1 2 3 4

Black & white rug: Finish up fabric strips. Cut more as needed. Blue plaid rug, only concept has been considered. No actual design or work has been done. If I use the same method as the other rug, I have a LOT of string I can use. Cones of it! Hmm….

Writing:

  • Memoir retype effort: 62.5% complete (I’m amused that I seem to do this in 3% chunks. I’m not counting or anything, it’s just that the sections are short, and it’s difficult emotionally, especially the first 3rd, so I’ve been doing it until I felt like quitting, then I let myself stop.)
  • 3 stories into novel:  Worked a little on one of the stories, call it 07% 9/20
  • kitchen book: nothing new
  • possible future editing jobs: no good news

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Other Organization:

  • All-In-One Organizer: monthly calendar page master design, organize sections, clean up, print
  • Make stickers/stamps
  • Books out:2 to the dump’s swap shop, 1 to a neighbor
  • Canister labels designed. Most supplies procured. Still to do: print labels and use! Various technical issues which need to be resolved:
    • My wordprocessor doesn’t have the right label template.
    • Avery doesn’t let you do a merge for their online template designer, etc.
    • The magnets I ordered are too big. They’ll be used on the fridge, but I need to order the right ones.
    • The simple answer would be to cover the labels with scrapbooking or other paper and print some clear labels to go over them. I may do that, or may not. My last step was always going to be putting clear shelf liner over the label to make it waterproof.

Chore List: 10/3

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Living Room:

  • Spackle wall board prep completedfor everything but the hall. We’re not sure we’ll have the paint to do the hall right now.
  • Primer, 2nd coat: (as needed) 
  • Caulk/chinking: (as needed)
  • Trim pieces cut, painted, installed: between beams, up against beam on oak wall against trim piece kitchen wall (future). Two long pieces on oak wall, 3 on street wall.
  • Final Paint:  bookcase wall, hall walls (closet, bath, pantry), entry, other interior stair wall, and stair rail wall, f door trim, other trim as needed.
  • Cull/clean: get fabric to Jeannie’s for reupholstery. Window replacement on north side (trim removal done).
  • (long term) Replace window interior trim and mod hall door trim to match front door (and get rid of those extra ledges!!!). Replace or modify baseboards for same reason. Sand, paint, and caulk floor. Move kitchen door?
  • Look at the room re “roller coaster” idea, Fix? Move green cabinet to hallway? Move mirrors to interior stair wall? Get DH involved with this.

Prepainting: In broad terms what remains in the living room prepainting effort:  whatever patching/prep is required in the hall.

Paint (final):Complete: kitchen corner to hearth to street window (oak wall), kitchen wall, street wall. Unfinished: interior stair wall, room side large stair wall, hall walls, bookcase wall (needs 2nd coat and some detail work). The trim needs to be painted with the “enamel” paint we bought for that purpose.

Measure furniture. Make a floor plan so you move the furniture and books ONE more time, not more than that! Move couch. First 2 pieces of furniture back in place against the log wall. We may move them, again, but not until the room is completely back together. Huzzah!

Replace the windows which bracket the wood stove. This involves removing the  2 1 “extra” windows in the kitchen also removing the aged windows bracketing the wood stove. Then replacing the aged windows with the “extras.”

Hall: Replace smoke detector (future).

Pantry: Get trim primed (3 2 pcs) paint walls add trim as needed and paint that too.

Kitchen: (Cull/clean) Get the 2nd Hoosier into the kitchen.  Dismantle the f’n 30 square foot counter and redo it to something saner!!! (long term) Pull the windows, put in the new wall and windows. Finish the sink window trim. Find, sand, prime the sidelight going up in the wall. Pull the 2 windows 1 which will replace the living room windows.

Laundry: (Cull/clean)  (longterm) Get the switch thing set up so you don’t have to pull the dryer out anymore!

Bathroom: (Cull/Clean) corners, window,  clear out.

Bedroom: (Cull/Clean) get couch downstairs. When reupholstered chair returns, put it here, not living room.

Attic: Get the remaining  base cabinet in there (or elsewhere). Get the bookcases from office 1 into the attic. Get doors on the cabinet. Decide what from attic to sell: wrought iron tables, wallpaper lamp, other hanging lamps, plate rack, etc. and sell them. More work on the attic: 9/27, 9/28, 9/29, 9/30, 10/1, 10/2, 10/4 books & trash removed.

Office 1: . Get the counter cleaned. Remove everything from the bookcases and get the cases moved into the attic.  Bring in the new dresser currently in the wood shed. Stack on top of it (same size, and small) the 2nd dresser, currently in the storage.

Office 2: Clear off the blue desk. Sell/cull items awaiting that. (long term) Move the office function downstairs.

Dining Room:  Take down candlabra, sell. Paint china cabinet and relocate the 2 Hoosiers.

Storage: Remove the 2nd Hoosier for the kitchen.Get at least 5 boxes out and deal with the stuff in them. Move to 10 x 20 unit. Get the 2nd dresser to the house

Garden: Continue, finish and keep up the weeding, so that the weeds don’t take over the yard and next year’s vegetable garden is a disaster accordingly! 9/11 was last time this was noted, but I’ve worked on it sporatically since.

Get the windows done. SR door panel 27.5 x 64,

Get the online and computer files cleaned out. (Drafts here = 44 9/11 “Tally” page information (tab, this blog) moved to history 9/17.

Rugs: Almost nothing done — removed completed piece from prototype as I found all the yarn and measured how much I have — no enough to finish the piece as it had been set up. The canvas is prepped, but that’s it at the moment. Found an error I’d made when I’d originally set up the canvas, am working on fixing that.

Writing:

  • Memoir retype effort: 62.5% complete (I’m amused that I seem to do this in 3% chunks. I’m not counting or anything, it’s just that the sections are short, and it’s difficult emotionally, especially the first 3rd, so I’ve been doing it until I felt like quitting, then I let myself stop.)
  • 3 stories into novel:  Worked a little on one of the stories, call it 07% 9/20
  • kitchen book: nothing new as of 9/5
  • possible future editing jobs: nothing new no good news

Stamp images found for most chores on the list.

  • Canister labels designed. Most supplies procured. Still to do: print labels and use! There are various technical issues which need to be resolved:
    • My wordprocessor doesn’t have the right label template.
    • Avery doesn’t let you do a merge for their online template designer, etc.
    • The magnets I ordered are too big. They’ll be used on the fridge, but I need to order the right ones.
    • The simple answer would be to cover the labels with scrapbooking or other paper and print some clear labels to go over them. I may do that, or may not. My last step was always going to be putting clear shelf liner over the label to make it waterproof.

Chore Status (as of 8/1/16)

Decided I need ONE place to track what the next step is in each location.

Living Room: Sand, clean, knot Sealer Living room wood walls are done! Primer (1st coat) all of the front wall, behind the hearth, hearth to back corner, small piece on kitchen wall, stair walls, room side, pantry/office wall, bath wall, closet wall, bookcase wall, kitchen wall, entry wall (all wall board). Sanding/Knot sealer: door trim: pantry, office, bath, closet, and stair rail. primer (2nd coat) : kitchen wall, oak wall, front wall, wallboard walls.  Final Paint: entire room, entry, stair piece and hall. Cull/clean: get chair  & fabric to Jeannie’s for reupholstery. Window replacement on north side. (long term) Sand and redo floor.

Kitchen: (Cull/clean) 2nd half of fridge, 2nd half of freezer, make freezer inventory.Get the boxes out of the way so you can pull the table out, get antique table out. Clean the marble table, move the sewing machine.Unfold the rug. Get the 2nd Hoosier into the kitchen. Get the new freezer in the kitchen. Sell the old smaller fridge. Dismantle the f’n 30 square foot counter and redo it to something saner!!! (long term) Pull the windows, put in the new wall and windows.

Laundry: (Cull/clean) clothes, backlog (again). (longterm) Get the switch thing set up so you don’t have to pull the dryer out anymore!

Bathroom: (Cull/Clean) corners, window, closet floor clear out. Mail or distribute presents.

Bedroom: (Cull/Clean) get couch downstairs. When reupholstered chair returns, put it here, not living room.

Attic: Get cabinets in there and stuff organized. First 4 cabinets are here now, need to get the space cleaned, and them placed in the attic, then stuffed with stuff, and clean the area for the next ones. Get the 2 base cabinets in there (or elsewhere) and the cabinet from the storage. Get the bookcases from office 1 into the attic. Get the bookcase boxes on top of the cabinets, when they fit.

Office 1: Get the first batch of craft supplies to the shop. Get the counter cleaned. Remove everything from the bookcases on the north wall and get the cases moved into the attic. Get dresser out of there for SIL to take home. Bring in the new dressers? Clean where the dresser was.

Office 2: Clear off the blue desk. Sell/cull items waiting for that.

Dining Room: Unfold the rug when the oak table is removed. Take down candlabra, sell. Paint china cabinet and relocate it and the 2 Hoosiers.

Storage: Get the table to the person who owns it. Remove the folding screen. Remove the 2nd Hoosier for the kitchen and cabinet for the attic.

Garden: Continue, finish and keep up the weeding, so that the weeds don’t take over the yard and next year’s vegetable garden is a disaster accordingly! [Worked on this 7/24-5]

Storage: Get at least 5 boxes out and deal with the stuff in them. Move to a smaller storage unit 10 x 20 instead of 10 x 30 which is what you have now.

Get the windows done. SR door panel 27.5 x 64,

Get the online and computer files cleaned out. (Drafts here = 51 as of 7/27, 50 as of 8/1)