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Backslid

I had a fire in my belly. It’s gone, or dampened anyway.

A bad night coupled with speaking out loud where I was ? 

 I described that being able to write the memoir as well as I had changed things:

I had done it, survived, figured out what I did well and royally screwed up. I’d written it down for others to judge. I’d written my defense, vindication, apology, and the narrative of my healing (and not). It is time to move on.

The house cleaning has to be done before I can move on. I can’t do whatever else it is that I do, even if it’s just try to make pie crust or can veggies, or anything else. The excess stuff is in the way, and it’s a symptom that isn’t real any more. In many ways, I have no idea how to be whoever it is that lives without the camoflauge or need for it. I have no idea who this person is, but apparently I need room and less clutter to find out.

And DH who enabled 4 decades of growth and change? He needs and deserves a cleaner house. It’s not much of a thank you, but it’s something concrete and now I can do it, where I couldn’t before.


Well, there you go, stopped me cold.

The PTSD person is a total wimp. Anything which looks like it will make me more visible or actually is movement towards healing? — it’s suspect! (hissed)

Makes me really *MAD*. It’s damned near impossible to get anything finished. It’s hard to get anything even 1/2 way done without slamming into that wall.

I do what I just did. Have a bad night. Think Okay, that was terrible.

Then have an okay night. Think, Fine, we go on.

And somehow, for some reason, or many reasons, or I just forget or I have sudden onset ADD… time goes by and the project(s) are dropped and I’m doing other things.

More time goes on, and then one day I realize that the chart I had filled out religiously for 2 months hasn’t been touched for 30 days, and so on. It’s like I enter a cloud of “forgetfulness fog” and become an amoeba. Makes me nutty when I realize I’ve done this, again.

And I just did.

Believe me, I KNOW why vets with PTSD drink. Yes, what they went through was horrific and certainly should not to be diminished. But dealing with the demon which is PTSD is just not fun.

paper piles
The image isn’t mine, I’ve used it here before. But it is a great symbol for being overwhelmed, disorganized, and with a huge amount of work ahead before things are cleared out!
J
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Thursday 1/11/18

  1. Clean the inside of a closet.
  2. Go through a new box.
  3. Clean off the dining room table. 1:30 p.m.
  4. Clear the clean clothes off the washer/dryer. done sometime before dinner, Thurs 1/11.
  5. Put tags on the for sale items. Fri. a.m.

Tuesday 1/9/18

  1. Research grout question. We put “self-sealing” grout on the hearth. Is it good forever or do we need to seal it again next year? 11:30 a.m. Answer from online research unclear. Need to ask someone in a tile store.
  2. (fill in). Research hollandaise, lemon curd, mayo base idea. Try it. Weds. a.m.
  3. (fill in). Use up the ground meat in the big freezer.  5:00 pm
  4. Research some of the books in the “going away” pile to determine if they’re donations or try to sell me books! Weds. 3:15 p.m.
  5. Lemon oil one of the appliances. Weds. noon

Friday’s Five & Backlog

I did something which shows me how things are different these days. Yesterday I gave away brand new packages of lunch bags and staples, to two different businesses. The lunch bags were given to an antique store who uses them to wrap china and glassware. The staples were given to the antique store where I have a booth.

In both cases, I have more than I think I’ll use in a reasonable time, without them.

I use about 1/2 package of lunch bags a year for drying herbs/spices. (And I reuse them sometimes too.) I had come to the end of a package and bought some, thinking I was out. When I went to put it away, there was another new package! I sure didn’t need another 50!

The box of staples came from a box of shop office supplies. I thought I’d folded in or deleted extras from the shop’s supplies long ago, but I found a box a few months back filled with labels (mostly tossed), the box of staples, and a few miscellaneous pieces. When I cleaned office shelves last week or so, I realized we had 2 complete boxes of staples, more than we’d likely need until oh 2050. I don’t expect to be alive or wanting staples by then anyway!

Previously, I would have kept them; in fact I did. These days? They’re clutter I can get rid of easily, and that’s great!

Friday’s Five:

  1. Find something to do with the extra eggs.
  2. Make pepper jelly.
  3. Figure out a new way/place to store the yarn and put it away.
  4. Look at the stored snow tires. Need new ones? In the budget?
  5. Make cookies with the frozen oatmeal.

Much of this is dealing with food, obviously. Partly because farm day was yesterday. But it’s partly because the other chores in/out are so far behind. I have to cook no matter what else happens most of the time, so this is an “easy” way to get the list pared down. If it’s a cheat, it is — sue me!

BACKLOG:

Thursday:

  • Empty my desk, again.
  • Cut more sage and other such from the garden. Kale Fri. 10/13, most of the rest of it 10/15. Need to pull some tarragon and that’s it.
  • Make up/try the Naval Academy brass polish.

Wednesday:

  1. Clean off DH’s desk.
  2. Cull books from one “holding pattern” bookcases. Either they’re out or they stay!, in process Thurs. a.m. (I did the 1st shelf.)

Finish laundry room clean up.

Tuesday:

  • Weed the brick path around the veggie garden, edge it. in process, 1st quarter done 1:30 Fri., 2nd quarter and 1/2 the 3rd done Sunday.
  • Move the lumber which needs it from the shed so it can be put away in the loft.
  • Work on grading the last pile of dirt.Fri. 1 p.m.

Monday:

  • Put family photos in the album. Can’t be done. Photos located, album missing! 

Friday:

  • Examine winter coats for flaws, etc.
  • Do the last gather of flea market materials, last market is Saturday 10/14 date changed to 10/21

Thursday:

  • Put ice scrapers in the cars, examine and see if they need replacement?
  • Ship the box to the BIL, make up more boxes of things which should be shipped and get them sent! I think I did this, although I’m not sure. I cannot find the box anywhere!!! Refound and shipped, sometime later. He got it mid/late Oct.

Monday’s Backlog:

  • Clear stuff from my car and run a vac through at least part of it!.

Friday’s 5 and Backlog. . . .

Friday’s Five:

  1. Examine winter coats for flaws, etc.
  2. Clear off the dining room table again. In process.
  3. Do the last gather of flea market materials, last market is a week from tomorrow.
  4. Work on the household journal.
  5. Strip the bed and replace the down comforter under the sheets so that it can be washed sometime this week. Done Friday, forgot to note it at the time! The comforter which was pulled off still needs to be cleaned and then replaced.

Thurday’s Backlog

  • Put ice scrapers in the cars, examine and see if they need replacement?
  • Ship the box to the BIL, make up more boxes of things which should be shipped and get them sent!

Wednesday’s Backlog

  • Organize/Cull the cleaning products

Tuesday’s Backlog:

  • Get lumber stored correctly for winter, where storage is available. Sat. noon
  • Clean the quarry tile in the sunroom. Sun., forgot to note the time!

Monday’s Backlog:

  • Clear stuff from my car and run a vac through at least part of it!
  • Work on the fabric storage again: cull and neaten.
  • Move the paint as DH and I discussed.
  • Clean out the underdeck storage. Sun. 6 p.m.

 

 

Monday’s Six, no Seven

I have one item outstanding from last week (#1), and today’s six:

  1. Work on the wood piles, also on the to do list.
  2. Straighten/tidy the wardrobe, no attic. Changed because of back up items waiting to go into the attic. 9:15 a.m.
  3. Do more work to catch up on my filing.6:30 p.m.
  4. Tidy and cull craft equipment.3:20 p.m.
  5. Desmudge the phones. 7:30 a.m.
  6. Straighten 2 dresser drawers. 8:30 a.m.
  7. Go through the vegetable bin, clean and cull. 2:30 p.m.

I also owe a friend who I’m writing an article with a draft or a piece of the article, so I’ll be busy today!

Partly because of the veggie bin clean out/cull effort, I went looking for food waste info. I found this link, which was new to me and thought it might interest you too!

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What else I’ve done today?

Swept the steps, and from the entry to the hall. Vac’d the landing and office. Cleaned the bathroom, done the dishes, two loads of laundry, packed items to be sold into my car, organized the things pulled from the dresser which need to be sorted through.

Just lounging around all day ‘eh?

Haven’t updated the Tally

Frankly, I’d forgotten all about it.

I’ve been working on taxes, and that is enough to make me downright grumpy, without contemplating purging stuff.

However, let’s see what’s on my “running total” document. It may be a lot, or nothing?

It’s nothing. I haven’t noted anything since the 6th, the last time I updated the tally as well. Tomorrow is a dump day; I’ll have to see what I can find to get rid of. Books are usually fairly easy for me to find. I’ve been filing papers though. My system this year is to put all the receipts, etc. in “coin envelopes” and they’re filed by month in a manila envelope.   It’s definitely filing, and the 20 from Jan are 20 pcs of paper in 20 envelopes in 1 big envelope, so 40 things become 1. I’ve only gotten thru the first quarter, but that’s 39 for Jan, 39 also for Feb, and 63 for Mar. That’s 141 pieces, all by itself!

coin-envelopes

So the new total is 254 pieces out.

Glad we had this chat, it was productive!

(smirk)

J

Just went into the attic, looking for more things to sell and found an envelope of old tax info — out it went! That’s another 116 pieces out. Huzzah!