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I Have Been

Working hard — on the house. I’ve been following my cleaning plan.

It seems to me that a major shift is in order. Instead of trying to sell the memoir as a psych. program auxiliary piece, maybe what I need to do is sell the cleaning plan and make the memoir the back piece to that.

It would solve the problem of the memoir just not having a plot, being first-person, too short, and a mess of other issues. Of course, I still haven’t heard from my publisher, but my feeling is that I will not. Not now and not in the future. It will be as if it dropped into a black hole and vanished… poof!

This has completely stopped the work I was doing on the memoir. I had even talked to a friend about coding it for an ebook. Okay, fine.

I can’t sell the cleaning plan if I can’t use it, right? I can’t set myself up as an expert on anything unless I can actually DO whatever. (Well, that’s not true. These days the woods are full of blow-hard know-it-alls who make pronouncements about any and everything. EVERYONE is an expert, about anything they feel strongly about!)

But I was raised by someone who genuinely was an expert in his field. My brother is. My husband is too. I have been surrounded my entire life by men who are really good at their jobs, and became “experts.”

So I have standards about about what it takes to BE an expert:

  • You must know what you’re talking about.
  • You must be able to do something rather than just talk about the subject.
  • You must have some sort of track record, that is a history, of successfully being able to do whatever it is.

My dad taught aeronautics  and designed airplanes for 40 years, my brother has worked in his field for the same amount of time and he’s still teaching and writing about it, my husband has been in his field since the field started, about 30 years now.

Me? The only thing I’m expert in is the inner workings of my head. The memoir is 50 years of life & learning and took me 10 years to write. The cleaning plan started in one way when I started this blog in 11/2011. I’ve been whacking away at the problems since.

I couldn’t do the memoir until I did the trauma work.

I could write, but not use, the cleaning plan until I did the memoir.

So, we’ll see if the next step is what I want/hope it to be? That is, using the cleaning plan, make it  a habit, and a book and/or app is the next step. (Habits take 90 days to be established.)

I sure hope so! I don’t know that I have the patience to spend 10 more years on this project.

So, I’ve shifted gears. I was all set to publish the memoir, whack away at the cleaning plan, then when I finally got it to work, get it ready for publication.

Nope.

Doing it the other way around. Going to get the cleaning plan working,  finish up the writing related to it, get DH or someone to make the app I have in mind, then publish the CLEANING PLAN, with the MEMOIR as back material.

Then the lack of “plot” or “arc” or sex, drugs, rock n’ roll won’t matter. I’m not selling the memoir; it’s explanatory material, I’m selling the cleaning plan. Want to know why I set the cleaning plan up the way I have? Read the memoir and you’ll find out.

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Image is not mine, not sure where I got it. Sorry!

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Electronic Simplify

Back in January, I started deleting emails. I’ve been doing it ever since. I just went under 24,000 unread emails. Which, if you remember, it remarkable, because I had 80,000? I may still have 50,000, if you count all the mail boxes up, but the primary one is < 24,000 now. 25,6xx, as of 5/26/19, 5:50 pm, to give you some idea what an incredible problem this is! 25,5xx as of 6:19 5/26/19. 

Confused? See here.

I keep opting out of email lists I’ve been on for years and deleting the old unread emails. I do this every day these days.

I have no idea when this effort will be done, if ever!

Whacking and Hacking

I did some work in my hobby space/office this morning. The drawers I plan to remove this summer are empty. However, the piece on top of them is NOT. Nicely, the bookcase which sits nearby is mostly empty, so I started the process of moving things from the top of the drawer units to the bookcase this morning. After that’s done, the top DH added can be removed. THEN the floor area needs to be cleared enough so we can get the small dresser and toy chest out and then, finally, the drawer units.

It won’t be tomorrow, that’s for sure!

However, there’s progress. Pieces were culled and added to the “flea market” stack, going to the storage, when convenient.

We got rid of the chair which has been lurking on the porch all winter last week, it went to the dump. It had checked (split) and neither of us thought it would sell, so off it went. It was a good, oak chair, but we couldn’t sell it, we tried in two shops, at various price points, nada. So it sat and sat and sat, and eventually the seat became checked.

Still  to be removed is the old flat file. That was waiting on better weather which we have now, but with both of us being sick, it’s way down the list, It can stay where it is, it’s a wind break on the porch.

DH examined the laundry vent, which got bent off 90 degrees by ice this past winter. It’s going to require patching, a diverter it should have had to begin with, and more sealing than it apparently had too, sigh.

THAT job is going to delay my moving the wood piles. We had one which fell over last winter and the plan has  been to move a lot of the wood storage to the porch. That has to wait until DH is done with the roof project. Since I didn’t want to move the wood 2x, I figured I’d just load it onto the porch around now. Hmm. Not now.

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Photo by Debby Hudson on Unsplash

I did get the last of the unstacked wood stacked yesterday. The last fall delivery was dropped at the lowest point of our driveway, the wood on the bottom was pretty wet, even sitting on a tarp. I had a plastic pallet,slated to go to the dump, but what the hey, I used it atop the lower tarp, wet wood stacked on it, put the 2nd tarp back on top. There’s not much there, only about 20 pieces, but it has a chance of drying now and it probably didn’t before, it would have just rotted.

Yes, I’m still getting things done. Yes, I still feel fine, and then have no energy, like water running into sand. It’s inching forward, but it IS forward. I am whacking away at it.

(Hacking is what I sound like, mostly, if I’m not croaking trying to talk.)

Going Back and Not

This past week found me working on pieces I haven’t worked on in a year or so: my might be a novel and the buying used stuff website.

Both are things that I hope to sell someday, so I guess I’m feeling like I need to make some $. Both are pieces I have a lot of time and energy into (the website data is 45 pages, for example).

Both got stalled last year. Okay, both are on my queue again, now.

Other things which have been dropped recently:

  • Food plan & food waste tracking – not so much dropped as forestalled. The farm food glut starts the end of this month . . . .
  • The cleaning plan – also not dropped as set aside because of the cold.
  • The absolutely final house purge. Also not dropped, but before the flea market last month I had gotten to all the pieces which were easily accessible here. So a major movement of boxes o’ stuff needs to happen. I have cleared off a bookcase in my office, almost entirely. But the other counters, etc. are heaped high with uncategorized stuff. There’s a crafters “maker space” (a commercial one) in the nearby college town. My idea is to take some of the materials there and USE them or donate or SELL them? We’ll see.

So, things haven’t stopped entirely, but yes, they slowed down a lot. The first major goal was met, that is we did the flea market in April. We donated a lot of the unsold merchandise to a thrift shop on our way out of town. There was a hole in the storage unit. There still is, although I’ve taken 1 load of new flea market gleans to the storage (and I have the beginnings of another).

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The next flea market is the beginning of next month.

Hopefully, I will NOT stay sick the entire month, like I have the past month, so this will be much easier!

I have dropped the following:

Early planting of the vegetable garden. Some of it should have been planted last month. Some of it should be seeded RIGHT NOW. I’m not because I feel wretched. Too bad!

What has been planned for this month is to scheudule the chimney sweep coming and  also replacing the chimney’s cap. That will do us for another year for that.

Two More Down

I realized a little while ago that my bucket list is almost entirely foods to make rather than places or events. I’m weird, no surprise!

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Photo by Sarah Boyle on Unsplash

Yesterday I made noodles and a cheese rind broth. Both have been on my to do list for a long time. Both will work, both will be repeated. The noodles were cooked in the broth, making an almost Parmesan sauce. Interesting.

 

When I went to the storage last weekend

I brought home 4 boxes of books. I unpacked 3 of them today. Researched 1, so it’s sorted.

The last one is the 3rd egg box, so it will be full of 50-70 paperbacks, again. But I have to go through the books I’ve already unpacked first.

I haven’t quit, but got discouraged, as usual. I get these huge surges of energy and ambition, but there’s just TOO MUCH to make a big dent, in even a week. I can see progress, but I need MONTHS of intense work before this is going to actually be done. April may be (shudder) about 6 months less than I need. I hope not, but…

Anyway, I loafed, relatively speaking this week.

And, because I know when I’m inclined to loaf, if I beat myself up about it or force myself to go on, at least with the house work, the PTSD starts screaming. So, I let myself loaf.

Square Feet, Eggs & Others

This was started 12/29/18

After I returned from breakfast, I contemplated what I should cull next?

It’s a dump day, so I can take whatever outs I want to the dump, today, no hanging around waiting to be disposed of, which is great!

The first piece was a copy of Square Foot Gardening which I haven’t look at in years. Long ago, I started reading Steve Solomon’s writing on growing vegetables and he has a long discussion about the French-style biointensive form of veggie gardening and why it may not be the best idea. I’d read about the biointensive form and it hadn’t worked all that well (including the square foot gardening idea) here. Solomon’s idea is that plants need a healthy root system, not crowding to deal well with stresses insects, diseases, etc. And that made more sense to me than timed and measured planting. It seems to work better here. It isn’t as tidy, but the plants are healthier and I’m convinced that means they’re better for us. Accordingly, I haven’t used the square foot gardening book for some time — so out it goes!

A reprint of The Egg and I soon joined it. I remember the story fondly, but the book isn’t something I’ll reread (or I haven’t for years) and this copy isn’t worth anything on the resale market — out it goes too!

And so on. There are books you’d likely NOT keep that I will.

  • A Treastise on Cake Making, a manual for bakers. I’m keeping it to convert some of the recipes and the forms used for inventory and recipes interest me.
  • Dahl’s Menu Making for Professionals. Largely kept for much the same reasons as the cake making book. I use professional books to find things which work with the least amount of extra fuss, materials.

And other books I’ll get rid of:

  • A manual for growing food, wholesale. I’ll offer this to the neighbor with a farm.
  • A price guide for children’s & illustrated books, offered to a friend who has always had an interest in illustrated books.
  • A copy of The Song of Roland edited or translated by Dorothy Sayers. I love her Whimsey mysteries, but somehow never read this. I’ll offer it to the neighbor who loves Sayers’ work. . . . None of these were takers, so they went to the swap shop.

DH is working on my Christmas present, a bookcase to replace the stacked small bookcases which currently house books in our upstairs hall.

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(It’s that bookcase again from images.google.com)

 

He originally made the small bookcases so they could be packed beforehand for shows. They worked wonderfully for that. But they’re too narrow to be a really good house bookcase. They wobble when you take a book out — always makes me nervous!

The old show cases are likely to end up in the shed or attic when DH gets the new bookcase made. It’s a built-in, so it won’t be replaced.

Today’s additions 1/8/19:

Annoyingly, the insert a line function seems to be broken here, sigh. Computers haven’t been working for me all day. My primary social media site seems to  be down or my account has been hacked. DH thinks it’s the site, and I believe him. But things have just been weird all day.

Today’s culls, so far:

10 books to the swap shop bin, 3 books to the bookstore box, 1 new skein yarn and 1 pair of gloves also to the swap shop.

Found contact info so I can return 2 prints, or at least a place to start, hurrah!

I’m feeling “bloated.” I’ve used up the space I have for sorting things and have no room. I had pulled out boxes for something earlier this week and noticed that the lack of floor space just stopped me cold. I replaced the boxes, but still have no room. I have 1 “floating” box right now, with nowhere to put it, 3/4 full. Filling it will be pretty easy. Finding a place to put it away? That will be hard.

I need a new inspiration, a new idea about where to put sorted, boxed items! My first one put 3 boxes next to the stairs. The next one put 8 boxes in my office. The last one straightened part of a bookcase and found a home for 5 boxes. But until the accumlated culls create enough space that having room to sort, cull and PUT AWAY the items which need that, I am going to keep having this problem.

Utimately, the things I’m keeping which have no home are going in the attic, boxed. Fine. But there’s no room there either….

Sigh.

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(This isn’t my home; it’s just how it feels!)