I’ve been avoiding this place, because I’m ready to and have indeed done much of the work to split the two main topics into two blogs, well three.
Frankly, I’m waiting on the publisher and I’ve been working on the house in my usual semi-organized way.
But none of the “next steps” can be done until one of three things happen:
- I decide to take the mask off I have here just because.
- I decide to do #1 because I have a publisher for the memoir and news about that.
- I get the house clean and the book finished about it, and have THAT book to promote.
I haven’t forgotten about this place. Have thought 100 times I should write a blog about a topic — but I’m not ready.
(image from workitdaily.com via images.google.com)
After 10 years of work, from rough stories because I thought I might need an online memorial (had an operation in 2008) to more refined to yet more refined, to finally being far enough away from the stories that I could use my professional skills and pull a book together?
After 3 editors, 3-5 computers, 3 word processors, a file which was so corrupt it had to be retyped, etc. I am done.
And done in I think too, or maybe exhausted is just a better word?
Having the memoir done and knowing it’s pretty good has changed me in some weird fundamental way. I don’t really have anything else to say right now.
(But Happy holidays!)
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Tagged figuring it out, limbo, memoir, new ways to live, skills, unsure future, writing issues
I asked my co-editor how long I should wait before I queried the publisher about the memoir. His answer? One month.
That’s 11/15, 3 days from now.
I really, really can’t think about this or it will make me bonkers. But inevitably, I AM thinking about it.
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I am surprised. I’ve had relatively little fallout/backlash from sending the memoir out to the publisher. Sending it to my writing group was worse. Every time I talk to someone about it or make changes someone sees, yes, it’s a little nutty. But… no screaming awake. No crying jags. No being pissed off and not knowing wtf is wrong.
There’s various pieces of consensus: there are still a few typos. There are some stylistic things I did which every single editor has pointed out. The last half isn’t as well written as the first.
That last didn’t surprise me at all. The first half is what took 10 years to write; it’s the map to my particular Hell. The last half was difficult because I just couldn’t see how to write it so it wasn’t a total bore. There’s a reason “They lived happily ever after.” is one sentence. But I needed to show the unraveling of the PTSD and healing that allowed that to happen. I needed to show that it wasn’t a straight line. I needed to illustrate that the process is not done and never will be.
That all took some doing. I only sort of really knew what book I was writing, what the arc of it really was when I sat down last month and decided to pull it together as I did. For one reason only. It had to be the best, most concise piece I could write and present to my publisher. I finally could look at it with my professional eyes, rather than through the lens of the wounded kid with PTSD.
I have no idea what happened that made that possible, but it was.
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Tagged changes, memoir, memoir issuees, memoir retype
The pharmacy auto calling was driving DH nuts, so he told me to do something already!
So, I did what I had intended to do, that is, I called our insurance company. In the process I learned a few things, at least one I will probably use the rest of my life.
- The price on the drug out-of-pocket was so high because we haven’t met our deductible. (I’m still not going to get it.)
- That there are coupons for prescription drugs available? You can get them here or try googling the drug name.
- The auto caller from the pharmacy gets stopped from the pharmacy, but may not be stopped immediately, it IS automated.
- If I want to talk to someone with an accent I understand, call in the morning.
It had NEVER occurred to me that there might be coupons for prescription drugs! I use coupons and try to be frugal in almost every way I can, but this is a new one on me!
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Tagged changes, health, learning, new ideas, new ways to save, pharmacy coupons, prescription drug savings, saving money on prescription drugs, techniques