I was nasty to someone who didn’t deserve it. Worse, it was someone I’d just met and they were trying their best to do something and I chided them (or thought I did) about how long it was taking. I didn’t realize until after I’d made my “joking” remark that what I’d said could also be taken as a variant on “You’re doing what you’re doing wrong or badly.”
I know how that feels, to try your best and have someone say to you, “What you’re doing isn’t right or enough.” It hurts.
I didn’t know what to do? Decided that I had to apologize, and not surprisingly, the person I’d been nasty to moved away from me in such a way that I couldn’t approach her.
What to do?
I left, but it bothered me and I felt I HAD to own up to my carelessness and apologize. I went to the market for an apology card. Because of Mother’s Day, the only such cards were for either BFF’s and/or lovers – both wildly inappropriate for someone I’d just met.
I got a plant gift card, you know the small cards/envelopes, and wrote an apology. Inadequate, but it was all I had.
I fucked up. I admitted it. I apologized.
Still feels like I should do more.
What to do?