I have seriously strayed; I’ve not been de-hoarding for weeks. . . still.
Told you I was depressed and not feeling motivated! Also, I’m just sick of whaling away at a seemingly endless job.
So, what to do? The most “bang for my buck” is working on the paperwork or the books. To that end, I will start a “paper report” and will display, daily, how many papers I sheet or file and/or how many books I catalog. I’ll humiliate myself into getting back on track. Usually, if nothing else works, that does. Like everyone, I like to at least pretend to be worthy of people’s time & attention; doesn’t everyone?
I’ve gotten all caught up in this “life on the computer” again, and just ignored my real life and house. It wasn’t the first time, no doubt it won’t be the last.
According to the Mayo Clinic, these are the symptoms of hoarding: I’ve commented in BOLD after if this fits me or not.
In the homes of people who are compulsive hoarders, the counter tops, sinks, stoves, desks, stairways and virtually all other surfaces are usually stacked with stuff. And when there’s no more room inside, the clutter may spread to the garage, vehicles and yard. TRUE
Hoarding affects emotions, thoughts and behavior. Signs and symptoms of hoarding may include:
- Cluttered living spaces TRUE
- Inability to discard items FALSE
- Keeping stacks of newspapers, magazines or junk mail TRUE
- Moving items from one pile to another, without discarding anything FALSE
- Acquiring unneeded or seemingly useless items, including trash or napkins from a restaurant FALSE
- Difficulty managing daily activities, including procrastination and trouble making decisions TRUE, sometimes
- Difficulty organizing items FALSE
- Shame or embarrassment TRUE
- Excessive attachment to possessions, including discomfort letting others touch or borrow possessions FALSE
- Limited or no social interactions FALSE
Of 10 symptoms, I’d say I have 4 and don’t have 6.
The Mayo Clinic also says:
People who hoard typically save items because they believe these items will be needed or have value in the future. MAYBE
A person also may hoard items that he or she feels have important emotional significance — serving as a reminder of happier times, for example, or representing beloved people or pets. SOMETIMES
People who hoard may report feeling safer when surrounded by the things they save. YES.
So, yeah, those characteristics I do have.